I sometimes forget. More than I care to remember.
I’d like to blame it on being ‘a-certain-age’, or at least, hormonal issues. Can you relate? [Read more…]
“There is a universal tendency to want to be someone else.” (Parker Palmer, “Let Your Life Speak”)
I’ve wanted it. To be like someone else.
Or, at the very least, I’ve looked over there, at someone else’s life, and thought – that looks kinda easy – or kinda nice.
I wouldn’t mind that life – or, that house – or, that income – or that gifting. [Read more…]
Recently, I started having some mild shaking that wouldn’t stop.
Not unlike the quaking that might occur if there were a tiny 2.0 Richter earthquake – probably not perceptible to those around me, but very real in my body.
I noticed the shaking occurred whenever I found myself thinking – well, dwelling on – a family member’s serious troubles.
I have never experienced anything like this.
Involuntary tremors, would be my best description. A physical reaction to my emotional state as I think of my family member’s distressing situation.
For me, this is unexpected. I am considered to be the strong one, the stable one, the good one in a crisis.
Life brings us to unexpected places – it can bring even the strong ones of us to places where you and I are personally challenged – vulnerable – less able to tolerate the stressors.
What do you do when the ground below you starts to shake, or you start to shake?
There are those large physical movements or shifting of the earth’s plates, i.e. an earthquake, then there are much smaller gradients of shaking – like my minor shakiness due to stress. There are, also, unseen shakiness – emotional quakes from heart aches, losses and pains.
For many years we had an ‘earthquake detection meter’ in our home on my hubby’s large oak desk. My hubby, ever the science guy, with the usual guy toy habits, had purchased this simplistic earthquake detection meter, perhaps just wondering if it could work.
You are probably picturing a sleek electronic gadget with digital numbers displayed giving exact quake measurements to within .001 point accuracy. Think again.
Our meter was an 1/2 inch lightweight wooden stick, carefully balanced on a thin metal wire and mounted on a 2X2 inch block of wood.
Old science. Oddly, it worked.
There were several occasions where we were sitting in our family room and noticed a slight quaking – we would glance at our earthquake meter – then, later check the news – and, it was always right. There had been an earthquake.
All this to say, it isn’t hard to detect the tremors and quakes in our lives.
There are many causes of shakiness in our lives – relational breakdowns, financial fissures, work stressors, losses, emotional pains that cause us to meltdown.
That particular Sunday morning, amidst the beginnings of more trembling in my body – I whispered out a quick prayer to the Lord – “Stop, my shaking”.
I felt the nudge.
We have a practice during our Sunday morning church service of opening up a prayer time during worship, when anyone can come forward to the altar and pray with another.
I felt the nudge to go up front to pray.
This isn’t my go-to place – I am more of a private worshiper. But, I heeded the nudge on this day and went forward to the altar during the prayer time.
Up front, amidst the sweet worship songs, I bowed my head and opened my heart with a beautiful prayer warrior – I spoke my need quickly: “I can’t stop shaking. A dear family member’s troubles are overwhelming me.”
I humbly agreed, my heart echoing her prayers for me, tears wetting my cheeks as I spoke my own testimony of trust in God as my unshakable hope and firm foundation.
I felt it immediately – the shaking stopped, the peace settled in deep. Healing began.
I don’t understand it. How God works. How He chooses to enact His healing – His purposes in our hearts – but I’ve experienced it first hand. I did on this day.
Even though I know in my head with God on my side I don’t need to be shaky, I sometimes forget. He’s got it. He’s got the whole world, literally, in His hands.
Getting that ‘fact’ – God’s got it – from my head down to my heart took prayer last Sunday.
Somehow, as I surrendered yet again – my fears, my woes, my anxiousness – to His Almighty hand – in the presence of another – He restored my solid ground.
God steadied me.
The earth stopped moving. The reality of a God who has all things in His sovereign hands – moved me to solid ground! Rock solid.
God is my steady, my firm foundation.
“Truly my soul finds rest in God;
my salvation comes from Him.
Truly, He is my rock and my salvation.
He is my fortress, I will not be shaken.”
**Lord, move us, to the place of sweet surrender and trust in Your Almighty strength and immovable power. We invite You to be our steady, this day.
For those of you who’ve played any sport, you know – there are sweet spots on a ball that if you hit it just right – dead center – you can feel the ping of a perfect hit.
I’m wondering if that analogy could extend to life and just what it might look like when you hit a sweet spot in life?
I learned this concept of the ‘sweet spot’ on the tennis court. [Read more…]
Wants. Needs. Gotta have ‘ems.
I have ‘want’ lists in my head. Is there something you want? Perhaps a better job, or a bigger home, a spouse? Some thing you feel would improve your life. Make life ‘better’.
“The Lord is my Shepherd. I shall not want.”
– Psalm 23:1 [Read more…]